got to take what you can these days, there's so much ahead; so much regret.
currently listening: kill-jimmy eat worldim falling in love with this song all over again. song's my lifeline. the lyrics speak so true.
anyway.
sch's been cool. the killer UTs were over yesterday so im feeling relieved and i just recieved some surprisingly good daily grades, which is my first A in the year. tho i dont think i quite deserve that. i didnt flunk my biochem test as expected,so that's good.
a brief sequel to the previous post, something happened today, something i should've done on instinct.but i didnt. i ignored and let my instincts down.hence, i missed my chance. not really in the mood to elaborate on the details, but im regretting. ugh.
*wonders what could've been*
hate the feeling. the feeling,hate.
currently listening: work-jimmy eat worldthe crushed feeling is back. sooner than expected. argh i hate the feeling.
could it be that everything goes round by chance, or only one way that it was always meant to be.how appropriate.
yes, there is a somebody i have my eye on. a no-no on who.
i dono.
argh, i dont even know the person. just somebody i see oh so very often.
crap. is it even possible to be attracted to someone by sight?bleh.
the last time i felt the same way as i do now was what?.. a month or maybe two months ago?
i never expected to feel so strongly again.
either way, i know it'll never happen.
how the hell do i approach someone i dont even know?
light up the hillsides;
currently listening: forever-vertical horizonargh.i feel like i've eaten 10 dinners in a time frame of 2 hrs.truth is, i've only had 2 dinners. the second dinner consisting of 3 helpings of rice.
*groan*
the UT craze is back on this week. i've three UTs this week. that being said, my course is the only course in rp history that has all the tests all scheduled in a week's duration.
im so screwed.
i've been a bored poet the past few days. bored in the sense that boredom brings inspiration for my poems.
did one today. will publish it at the end of the entry.
i need a life outside school! so far, its been school and town and home and the cycle repeats. weekends are spent at home coz im hardlyin the mood to go out.
lovelly.*cringeanyway, with regards to a week's holiday for national day, its not gonna be a week. i've holiday on only mon, tues and wednesday.crap.
alright. i shall end this with a poem as promised.
*drum roll*
drift awaysometimes, it gets boring just sitting on life;
being the grain in reality's sack.
doing the things we do,
filling the same spaces.
thats when i drift away..
into red skies of exciting tommorows
into wilder dreams and twists,
and shadows that light up one's soul.
wrapped around my strife,
sitting through days of stagnant believing;
complete with jarring contemplation
a neverending carousel,
thats when i drift away..
through the fire to danger.
from the misery.
leaving every
thing that's real.
my mirage.
6 more weeks of school left.
currently listening: crawling back to you-backstreet boys*BIG BLINK* time flies when you're wishing it would, and you didnt know how fast until it hits you one day.
now,thats a first *GRIN*
a month and two weeks of school left. a week break in between for national day, a definite bright mark from my dark dismal days filled with my whine.r0x0rs lArrrrr. strange way of surfacing tho, considering it's biochem day. and i STILL dont get what's going on, but im putting more effort to try coz ultimately i must do well
and also coz lianne cracked the whip on me the last time we chatted,heh.anyhow, thats all for my quick update. more, next time.
ave a gd day ya'll.
*cringe*
currently listening: underneath you- jessica simpsondeleted the last post off.
everything about it was yucky and ewwy.
pretending im packing my bags coz i dont wanna be; the only one who's drowning my my misery.
currently listening: dancing in the moonlight-toploadergreat. my pharmaco fac just budge into the classroom with news that made my day brighter but with a prescence that traumatised.lol
but she's gone now, its all good.heh.
havent been updating much, sorry abt that, i've been extremely lazy and also well nowhere near coherent in expressing what i wanted to say.
caught two movies in two days, fantastic four yesterday and war of the worlds the day before yesterday. pretty enjoyable.
confirmed that my sis was in the advertisement for tv mobile when she got back from thailand, few days back. it came as a shock to see her on telly one day during one of my late night tv sessions alone in the living room.haha.
anyway, i've been relatively low in the recent past period. and it sucks when you havent a clear reason why, hence i cant really talk to anyone abt it.s'odd and very unsettling.
im hoping it'll pass quickly..
